Doing something for yourself is OK!

At least that is what I am told these days :-)  (Thanks to my wonderful husband!)  With all of the changes over the last 6-7 months, putting myself before either of my boys has not happened nor has it even crossed my mind.  From shopping for myself, taking a nap when everyone else is resting, getting away for a few hours, or even taking the time to "get ready" every day.  (Don't get me wrong, I do have days that I get ready, actually put on make up, change out of my sweats, but it doesn't happen often.)  New clothes, well that hasn't happened in a while and I don't even care.  It truly is hard to say something for ME is more important than something for Jameson or Luke.

Adjusting to mommy-hood, being a stay-at-home-mom and everything else that comes with babies and husbands has not been easy for me recently.  It's been a struggle for me to admit this because I don't want to sound like a "bad" mom or wife, but it's true.  Our family went through a few changes in a very short period of time and looking back now, it really took a toll on me.  I say "looking back now" because until just recently I don't think I realized it or wanted to admit it.  Don't get me wrong, my boys are my number one priority, but when I say "it hasn't been easy" I mean I have not taken very good care of ME.

Luke and I had a long talk on our vacation and he told me I really needed to take some time for myself.  (sorry all, but I truly believe I have the BEST husband in the world!)  He could tell I was trying VERY hard each and everyday to make sure he and Jameson were happy and healthy, but I wasn't doing anything to make sure I was ok.  He doesn't need all the make up, fancy clothes or nice shoes... but he does need a wife with confidence, a smiling face and a positive attitude.  (The LOVE is always there) ;-)

So...  (in true Hansen style) Luke and I created a list of "things that make ME happy" (outside of our family) and things I want to accomplish for ME.

Although its only the beginning, I already feel like a better wife, mom and daughter... everything.  I joined weight watchers to help me drop the baby weight, I am enjoying my work outs MUCH more, eating better, enjoying cooking new recipes, "walking taller" and most importantly... smiling at who I am!

I can not tell you how much I LOVE being a mother and a wife, but I truly could not say I enjoyed much about myself.  With a little boost from the hubs, I am much happier, healthier and of course more confident.